something I've been wanted to get off my chest...

backstory time!:

"You see this?" he pointed to his nose and asked me.
I rolled my eyes, "yeah, what?"
"Do you know what this is?" It was his nose, duh.
"A bunch of red little dots?" I answered, annoyed. (i was referring to his multiple zits. cuz I'm mean like that.)
He rolled his eyes this time and said, "No, it's a nose." but before i could say duh, he said, "and it's shaped RIGHT."
I knew he was referring to my flat nose. I'm Asian, it's not one of those things I'd like to change about myself. But hey, he didn't need to go around saying my nose is oddly shaped.
Who is he to be insulting my race? Our noses AREN'T formed wrong, its just the way we are.
I'm sick of all the Asian stereotypes that people make up. Like, oh, you're Asian, you must be good at math and science. Oh, you're Asian, you must play piano/be really good at drawing/study too much/play tennis/ice skate. Not that those are necessarily bad things to do, but still.
And the whole squinty eyes thing. Again, it's who we are. I've had friends that do the whole pulling their eyes back to look Chinese thing. I also hate that when people just automatically think you're Chinese or Japanese if you look Asian. I am 100% Vietnamese, thank you very much. (well as far as i know. I'm adopted) And all the "Made in China" stuff. I read this quote somewhere that said, "Fake hair? Fake Tan? Fake boobs? Where's you're Made in China sticker?" I know, that a lot of products were made in China, but that doesn't mean they make fake things. I don't know, some people may see it as whatever, but i thought it was really stupid, and would not have it in any Polyvore set of mine.
And I've gotten a Vietnamese sweat shop joke once too. It hurt a little. Like gee, think about my feelings, thanks.
And i know a lot of my friends that are Asian deal with shit like this too. Some complain that people think they're goth, or need to smile more. actually, a lot complain about people telling them to smile more. I could make a list, but i don't feel like mentioning a whole bunch of names. My take on it: I'm concentrating. sorry, Mr. (English Teacher), that I don't smile when I'm listening to you read aloud or when I'm taking a Literature Test. And I'm sorry that I wore a black t-shirt that one day. My bad.
But seriously, I never really dealt with this in elementary school. I feel like it's getting worse as we're getting older. Like, as we get older we actually LOOSE that voice inside our heads that tell us right from wrong. I know, we probably get it back gradually as we become adults (and some don't) but what the fuck. (excuse my language) I'll admit to being a goth at some point in my life, but I grew up, and got over showing my depression through dark clothing persona. So back the fuck off.

I don't really know why all this is floating in my brain right now, but it's making me really frustrated. And I need to be awake in less than six hours to go to conditioning. So i thought I'd get it off my chest.

If i could cut time out, I'd skip right to August 8th (start of Asian adoptee camp. yeah. we gots our own camp.n_n) so I can go to camp for that week, then come back and have a week before school starts. The only reason i don't cut that week out, is because I want one last week to cram with laziness (oxymoron) and to go shopping with my best friend, Devany Howard. (She's going to the Asian adoptee camp with me. She was adopted from China.)

^Maile!^

To be honest...

I am so tired of summer. I want to go back to school. There! I said it! I don't like summer. I don't get a lot done, and honestly, I'm just a lazy stump all summer. I wish my school was like those schools that have school year-round, but have short breaks throughout the year. I think three months off of school is stupid!! Its like working out hard for three weeks, and doing absolutely nothing for the next week.. you think you're in shape, and you are compared to people who never work out, but after that one week of doing nothing, you are completely out of shape. I can guarantee 93% of the kids in my class won't do anything to stimulate their brains most of the summer. Me included. I haven't looked over any of my notes from the previous school year, or done any math exercises or anything like that. The only thing I've studied all summer is the zodiac, and i don't think they have any freshmen classes on astrology.
But don't get me wrong, I like breaks from school. I like not having homework, or having to think about people I don't particularly like, or studying for tests/quizzes/exams. But I just wish the breaks were more spread out. it doesn't make sense to spread nutella all over your toast except for a circle in the middle. i don't know, it may be just me and my opinion. (when you read opinion really fast, it looks like onion kinda.)

My Opinion on Artificial Intelligence

So I was reading on the New York Times website, and I found a link to a video where a reporter was interviewing a robot. Even though the robot was like just the shoulders up. It was extremely creepy, you know... silicone face, fake hair, and robotic movements.. it was weird.
And then i got to thinking.
Why are these people wasting their times making robots? No one will need the top fourth of a robot body to do anything important... i mean, unless you aren't comfortable talking to yourself. But I think it's stupid that smart scientists waste their time creating something that will help less smart people do less with their lives. I mean, haven't those scientists ever watched those sci-fi movies? Why even create robots? There weren't any robots in the 1800s, people had to man up and fend for themselves.
It's not that I'm against moving forward, but seriously? All this technological advancement is pretty superfluous. Like, making robots to do everyday stuff, when you could just get up, ad do it yourself. Like, i think that reading books on like the iPad or something is kinda dumb. It's not that hard to ride your bike to the library, or walk. But people make all kind of excuses, like "but what if it's raining?" or "Why would i want to do that if i can do it right here on my living room couch?"
Sigh. I think our generation is becoming less and less active. I parents made me watch this tv special on how some adults think that our generation spends too much time with technology. (ironic, no?) But pretty much the entire show was about official-looking adults saying stuff about the pros and cons of teens and their electronics. (most of it was cons.) and then i thought, man, before you start thrashing our generation, ever stop to think about the generation that RAISED us? goodness.
sorry, this is a very opinionated post, i guess. feel free to disagree. (see how it rhymes? haha)

^Maile!^